20 Things I'd like to Say to Certain People

This is a tag I found interesting from one of the blogs I found while searching for reviews. It's 20 random things you wish you'd say to certain people but you just don't get to have the perfect moment for it. The blog I read had some nasty to sweet nothings in stored. Here's mine: 

1. Forgive me but I'm growing tired of waiting.
2. I wish you were here.
3. Grow up. 
4. You're not always right.
5. Just stop talking, can't you see we're not interested?
6. I don't know what I did for you to not like me.
7. I envy everything about you but I see you live a sad life.
8. Set yourself free.
9. I'm proud of you my friend.
10. You'll get there.
11. I hope we can get really close.
12. I'm sorry I judged you but my judgement stays intact.
13. You are not happy, I know so.
14. Maybe we'd pick up where we left off.
15. I don't feel our connection. AT ALL.
16. Thank you for everything, I just hope you didn't give me everything.
17. What if you never left?
18. I love you, but you give me all the headache.
19. We just clash when we're together.
20. I just miss you being my sister.

Overrated you say?

Hello there, since it's the first day of the so-called "love month" or February which I must say is way too overrated now, I shall post a short near mushy blog tonight.

I remember receiving a V'day greeting from a friend like 3yrs ago and that friend already used the word "overrated" for V'day hence still greeted me. haha! Just wanted to share.

ANYWAY..

My boyfriend and I have owned similar stuff since we got together. We tend to buy things and just have them in different colors to distinguish who's whom. Yeah yeah, a "couple thing" you may call but hey, it's fun to have yer better half own something same as yours yah know?

I do that with my other friends too. I'll post about that sometime when I get to gather our pics.

Here's a mashed up photo of some stuff we have in His & Hers mode:

Total Pillows, Earphones, Cellphones and their rubber case and G-Shock watches

Some of the stuff here are recently bought like the Total Pillow, which I bought from Divisoria, the Heavenly Market where everything could be bought cheaper than in malls. 

Our cellphone rubber cases and earphones which are a Beats rip-off He bought from a sidewalk in Manils. I must say it doesn't work as fine as it should but s'all good, what can you expect from sidewalk purchase anyway.

See? You can have same stuff with your better half without being too mushy and all that. ^_^

Whirlwind 2011

Whaddaya know? Just like every year.. there'll always be a lot of happenings..

On September, I officially ended my contract with my job as a Copywriter. It was a difficult decision to make but I just had to. Personal reasons and I figured I'd focus on earning my Masteral Degree at UP Online University.

My aunts abroad and my Dad spent a brief emergency leave as well because of my Gramma whom got confined in the ICU at St. Luke's Medical Center, Global City.  We were already preparing ourselves for the worst but Thank God, when my Gramma had the chance to see all her children, I believe it motivated her to fight and get well. As of now she's better, but needs all the assistance with the help of 2 caregivers. Thank you Lord for prolonging her life.

On November, I underwent the most life-changing decision I've ever made, and that is to have Lasik Eye Surgery. I never expected the procedure to last for only about 30mins. The Opthalmologist Dr. Salvador Sison was very accommodating that I wasn't that tensed during the procedure. It was pretty difficult at first with all the eye drop medications and stuff, but HEY! I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW!  No more glasses.

On December, my Dad came back for his real vacation and I'm happy to share that my parents were able to meet my boyfriend's siblings.. most of them.. and this was during a christening celebration of Steve's nephew Roan Carlo, the first nephew in the family.

Dec. 17, 2011 at Sir Boy's Food Republique
This is one of the happiest days in my life to date. ^_^

We spent Christmas at our home in Calamba and spent New Year's in Vigan.. my first time to spend New Year's on Steve's side.

T'was a good year, full of changes but they sure made me a better person from before.

Life Lessons in Less than a Year

This blog is about what I experienced in the past months with friends. How can one concept of problem be experienced by a circle of friends in different situations and in such a short span of time? Is it a curse? A trend? Is it our fate? Who knows?

You know what they say: 

"Experience is the best teacher."

"A Cheater is always a cheater."

and

"Trust takes a lifetime to build but only seconds to destroy."

I'd agree with two of them there but would strongly object with one and will do my best for the rest of my life to prove that THAT one quote above is not entirely applicable to everyone.

After experiencing such pain of being left by the person she thought she'd spend forever with, my friend realized that a broken heart hurts 10,000x more than what we read in quotes when you've actually experienced it. That's her first heartbreak from a first love she thought would be the last.


It was THE almost perfect (since there's no perfect) relationship anyone could have. Almost 6years in a relationship they thought would last forever, or SHE thought. But in a snap it was all gone. The guy found someone else from his workplace, easy as that. She's left single, trust destroyed in seconds after finding out about the Other girl, future plans crushed to pieces, and worst, her heart broken.

Funny how people who can love with a pure heart be the ones who actually get their hearts broken. Shame on those people who hurt them. SHAME ON YOU. 

SHAME ON ME.

I say that because I myself have done that. Hurt people I love. How can I love them if I hurt them? It's unreasonable to say you love a person with all your heart but you're able to cause him/her the greatest pain he/she thought you'd never do. These people trusted you with the most fragile thing they could ever entrust with anyone and all you do is hurt them. What a SHAME. 

How bout listening to the other side of the story? Lack of time? Not happy anymore? Don't know why it happened? BULLSHIT. The other side doesn't matter with reasons like that.

The people who hurt you have one thing in common: PRIDE. One more thing: COWARDICE. Need I say more? Guess I've said enough. I won't meddle deeper into it.

Another friend of mine who's experienced being the "bad" guy learned that the hardest part in admitting you've done wrong and paying for the hurt you caused the person you love is actually REALIZING how much damage you've caused and how DETERMINED you are to win back the trust you once had so whole.

It may never be the same again, but the faith in making it right is the next best thing. This can only be done through compromise. Both parties should work on it. But if only one of you is willing. Then it's probably time to let go.    

How bout those people who just don't get it? Those who enjoy making their life complicated? Can you blame your heart from falling for a person just because he's the one closest to you? What will you do to those people willing to love you without complications? Can't you just learn from other people's experience? 

I guess it's the adrenalin rush that excites people to give in to temptations. Not knowing how much consequences they're putting themselves into.

C'est La Vie!

Happy 31st Birthday Ate Sharon!

Sharon Macasaet

February 15, 1980 - March 29, 1993

My Sister who is 31 today.

Wish you were here with Us. 

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life."

John 3:16

Pre-Valentine's Celebration: Maki Day!

Valentine's Day - an annual celebration of love and affection between intimate companions. Usually expressed by giving flowers, chocolates or offering sweet nothings to their loved ones.

This year, Valentine's Day falls on a Monday, a weekday. I usually celebrate it with my Mom who's in Calamba, Laguna. So Steve and I made efforts to go home to Calamba so we could celebrate it with my Mom. 

It was a great bonding moment for us coz we made California Maki!

It's not my first time though coz back in highschool my Mom used to make California Maki and I joined while making them. We had a first timer, it was Steve's first time to make California Maki and he enjoyed it very much!

This is the simplest California Maki ever made!

First, we prepared the ingredients: 

Japanese Rice, Seaweed for the wrapper, Crabsticks, Mango and Cucumber

We didn't have a sushi roller so we made use of foil to roll the Maki.

Steve did the spreading of Japanese rice on the seaweed ...  

then i put the filling...

then Steve does the rolling...

and finally, my Mom cuts them into the cute Maki rolls they are!

SUCCESS!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! 

Four Years

It's been four years.

Four years of laughter.

Four years of struggle.

Four years of effort.

Four years of patience.

How did we make it all four years?

Is it you or is it me?

I don't know, maybe it's We.

We live, we laugh, we love.

We went up and we went down.

We forget and we remember,

but we always understand each other.

How about another four years?

Nope! I don't think so.

I'd rather say FOUR-ever.

Happy Anniversary!

How Could You?

For all the guys who cheated.

How could you?
Is all i can say for now
since you left me without giving a bow
but how can i forget what we once had
not knowing how it was all that bad
Now you’re with her
i know i’m bitter
it’s just how you made me
maybe later on I’ll be better
i guess i have to thank you for all those lies
felt like the hurt when someone dies
but it did make me stronger than i was before
brave enough to drag you outside the door
i do hope you’re happy
this is just how i am, a little snappy
that’s why from now on i’ll make sure your life will be crappy

-----> copied and pasted from my Triond post last Nov.12, 2008. i kind of forced it to rhyme. hahaha!

Heartbreak

All heartbreaks are the same. All are painful.

They are just felt in different situations.

A heartbreak is felt from breaking up with someone.

A heartbreak is felt when you realize that your parents are getting a divorce.

A heartbreak is felt when your favorite dog dies.

A heartbreak is felt when your friends leave you when you need them.

A heartbreak is felt when your child doesn’t obey you.

A heartbreak is felt when your teenage daughter unexpectedly gets pregnant.

A heartbreak is felt when your grandmother doesn’t recognize anyone anymore because of Alzheimer’s.

Bottom line: A heartbreak is felt when something we care for and love unconditionally unexpectedly gets into situations we never saw were coming. Once each of these people who have been in situations like these can relate to one another. Not just because you didn't go through the same situation doesn’t mean you’re not able to relate to the pain they’re going through. That’s the wonder of life. Everyone goes through the same pain but not everyone goes through the same situation.

----> copied and pasted from my Triond post dated March 20, 2009.

Get Stable then Settle Down

So, the long wait is over. After like, 4years abroad, Steve's sister's boyfriend finally decides to stay here in the Philippines for good. They're getting married this October! Finally and Yehey! Apparently, she's the last sister to get married. Out of the 4sisters. She's the youngest of the sisters too, Ate Ann, but she's 31yrs old. Funny how all Steve's siblings got married past the age of 30. That leaves Steve and his other brother, Kuya JR, 30, the one before him, unmarried out of them 7siblings.




I expect the family to persuade the brother to be the next one to get married... but No... it's US. That's because they don't see any stable plans Kuya JR is doing, and his girlfriend of 5years just graduated from MedSchool this year. So there's totally NO plans of settling down any time sooner.

As for me and Steve, we got plans for ourselves too yah know! For Steve, he needs to get his van fixed. He's striving to get it overhauled before this year or mid-next year ends. Then he said he needs to save up for a house or atleast a place we can live in when we settle down.

For me, I just wanna see our house in Laguna all complete and cozy. Then a car, a place to live in Manila, near my workplace. Then save up for another degree. I can take up the degree even if I'm married anyway. Well, those are my plans so far.

First things first... I wanna live my SINGLEDOM to the FULLEST! Maybe settle down when im around 26yrsold at the least. I also don't want to keep my hopes up that it's really Steve im gonna end up with. We'll never know. If we manage to keep our relationship on fire until then, then maybe he is the one. If not, i'd still be grateful.

I even think I wanna be Really SINGLE before i say "i do"... but i guess Steve won't approve of that. It'll just convince him that I wanna be in another relationship even if I just want to be called SINGLE for a while. SHEESH, boys. lol. They can be pretty possessive too yah know. oh well.

Confucius Confused

In LOVE, there's always the two choices: your HEART or your MIND.

HEART- what you really want. The choice that will make you genuinely happy inside but most of the time, it is the choice that will test the waters.

MIND- practicality. Mostly the choice of people who are concerned about their ambitions and what other people might say.

BEST ADVICE:
"whatever makes you happy."

WHAT IFs?

-What if what makes you happy is achieving your ambition?

-What if what makes you happy is the happiness of your other loved ones rather than your own genuine happiness?

-What if what makes you happy is that you'd rather get hurt and choose the RIGHT choice in the eyes of many instead of choosing the RIGHT choice that will genuinely make you happy?

-What if you're not even sure of what your HEART dictates?

BOTTOMLINE:
you still have to make a CHOICE.

CONSEQUENCE:
in every choice you make, SOMEONE, SOME PEOPLE, or YOURSELF will get HURT.

REALITY:
We all get HURT and we all learn to MOVE ON and ACCEPT it.

CONCLUSION:
make a choice and stand up for it.

T-Shirt

I know it's cheesy, but I exclusively asked for this souvenir t-shirt from my Aunt who went on a two week vacation to the United States of America. She went to San Francisco, so I asked her to get me a souvenir shirt with the infamous design "I" with a red heart then the acronyms of the place which became famous with NY. Now, I got SF! Just so you know, my boyfriend's initials is S.F. which stand for Steve Fortuna. Aww, sweet and cheesy as i am... I love it!

*with nothing but your t-shirt on* (singing the song T-Shirt by Shontelle)

Does SERENDIPITY really exist?

After years of nudging, I was finally convinced to visit Steve's hometown, Vigan. It was my first time to travel by land that long, 9hours. Compared to airplane traveling, I'd usually sleep all through out, but that time I couldn't coz I had to accompany Steve while driving. Doesn't matter, I love traveling anyway. Upon arriving there, I didn't feel any different at all. In my mind I was like "wow, feels like i've been here before.."


I've come to discover so many things about him, from his childhood to his early youth from his family's stories and pictures they've shown me.

All sights, food and stories impressed me but there was one thing Steve showed that shocked me, it even gave me goosebumps when he was telling me about it.

On the day of Sept.2, 1998, a newly cemented wall on the side of the house caught the attention of the ever playful 16yr.old "Teban". He thought of drawing and writing on the wet cement. He wrote his name, drew a table tennis net and racket, an Adidas logo on the top corner, as well as the date "9298" on the middle part. Beside the date he thought of drawing more things, but the cement was drying up so he had to hurry. He thought of drawing a scoreboard or perhaps some other names of his favorite brands but he got it wrong so instead he continued writing until he came up with a decent or readable enough word... it was this:


He already forgot about this until last year, 2008, 10years later, he came across it while repainting the wall. He never thought it was there, he wasn't even aware it was still there, and it shocked him knowing he wrote it even before we met.

When he told me that story, indeed it gave me goosebumps but i was like "wth? you must be courting or crushing on someone named Kat or something!". In reality, who would believe that would actually happen right? Steve insisted there was no one and that it was really something extraordinary because if you compare it to the other things he drew and wrote on the wall, the name "KAT" was the word that seemed unintended coz of the way it was written.

I DON'T KNOW!!! that's what he said...