Worst Nightmare

I had a dream last night. I can't remember in detail because I was comforted by the fact that it was not true right after I woke up.

The dream seemed so real. All I remember was listening to a woman's voice, it sounded like my boyfriend's sister. She was telling me my boyfriend's dead and how he died, using medical terms in between. I see myself only hearing her voice and the words but I couldn't actually contain what I felt. I was in denial because I knew that day that I just spoke to him sometime earlier and that we were just together the day before.  She was careful with the words she used, in some parts her voice cracked.  I can sense myself trying to respond but no words would come out. The feeling was like running out of breath, I was trying so hard to cry and scream but my eyes felt numb, tears wouldn't come out. My heart felt like it was being crushed right after my chest was ripped open. The feeling just felt so real. I didn't know what to do but run away and go nowhere. I was already imagining my boyfriend in the coffin convincing myself that it's all a dream. I was trying to wake myself up. Like really really convincing myself that it was just a dream.

Then I woke up and he was beside me sleeping soundly with arms around me. That made me catch my breath. I realized I was sweating. When I finally decided to yawn, I felt my teeth hurt, as if I bit something so hard. I guess I was really fighting over that dream.

All is well. Thank You Lord. I wouldn't know what I'd do if that really happened.